from a child I learned
it's ok to be easily hurt
it's ok not to understand
it's ok not to want what others want you to want
from a dog,
bark sometimes
don't let just anyone come near
from the cat,
disobedience does not kill you
("Come here." "No, thanks.")
Friday, August 28, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
legs
the cat gallops past to play
I chase her under the dining table
her legs distinguishable from all the rest
I chase her under the dining table
her legs distinguishable from all the rest
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
surviving the landmine
at peace--she’s not a burden to her family--
they’ve sold her into slavery--
on bare ground with her one leg
her hands weave the rhythm of her days
she had hopes, but they are dead
nobody wants me now, she said
they’ve sold her into slavery--
on bare ground with her one leg
her hands weave the rhythm of her days
she had hopes, but they are dead
nobody wants me now, she said
Monday, August 17, 2009
Saturday, August 15, 2009
psychosis
...standing on some foreign threshold
the fear, a fur on my back
where is that gold-paved road
the stone lions, the iron door
who has the formula?
where the dwarf to lead me
through this wind-torn landscape
shreds still flapping from the bones of trees...
I watch myself
trying to flee a terrible dream...
*
from the door
the view is wide, wide!
it seems that this is where fulfillment lies
and greatness
and slipping of the yoke
one step...
so why is my heart racing?
it is grey, and cold
I am alone
it seems a violent wind has blown
the air away
this freedom feels too much like dying
the door has gotten very small
but I know I must get in
the fear, a fur on my back
where is that gold-paved road
the stone lions, the iron door
who has the formula?
where the dwarf to lead me
through this wind-torn landscape
shreds still flapping from the bones of trees...
I watch myself
trying to flee a terrible dream...
*
from the door
the view is wide, wide!
it seems that this is where fulfillment lies
and greatness
and slipping of the yoke
one step...
so why is my heart racing?
it is grey, and cold
I am alone
it seems a violent wind has blown
the air away
this freedom feels too much like dying
the door has gotten very small
but I know I must get in
Friday, August 14, 2009
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Hey
when I make a statement and you negate it
and I restate my statement, softening my stance
I’m not bowing to pressure
I’m restating my original position
refined for accuracy
and I restate my statement, softening my stance
I’m not bowing to pressure
I’m restating my original position
refined for accuracy
Friday, August 7, 2009
yard list
gazing balls
purple plastic windmills
yellow wagon, red petunias
terrier with a serious underbite
snarling & snorting
purple plastic windmills
yellow wagon, red petunias
terrier with a serious underbite
snarling & snorting
Thursday, August 6, 2009
gray days
the bay area was hiding from the fact
that it is a very hot summer
as the temperature climbs, the fog piles on the hills
ready to wash over us in the night
neither does it settle on the ground, but floats, protective layer
between us and the sun
I peered out the front window last night (where it is never really dark)
and saw it--caught the fog in full retreat, draining back to sea
tomorrow will be a very hot day
that it is a very hot summer
as the temperature climbs, the fog piles on the hills
ready to wash over us in the night
neither does it settle on the ground, but floats, protective layer
between us and the sun
I peered out the front window last night (where it is never really dark)
and saw it--caught the fog in full retreat, draining back to sea
tomorrow will be a very hot day
Monday, August 3, 2009
empty
tanker truck
up the hill at full speed
swinging its trailer
(trucks we built so as not to burden
any more beasts)
up the hill at full speed
swinging its trailer
(trucks we built so as not to burden
any more beasts)
Saturday, August 1, 2009
shifting the plates
whenever you say what you really mean
red hot material oozes from a crack
a blackened fingernail grows between two continents
red hot material oozes from a crack
a blackened fingernail grows between two continents
Friday, July 31, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
telephone dream conversation
grandfather calling, from his living room
at the edge of the farthest galaxy
and indeed, he is gone,
within reach of the stars
into the realm of the timeless
at the edge of the farthest galaxy
and indeed, he is gone,
within reach of the stars
into the realm of the timeless
disapproving of her social self
perfectionist, she kept it pure
visiting no one
inviting no one to her house
visiting no one
inviting no one to her house
Friday, July 24, 2009
celebration house
Christmas lights tacked to the eaves
ceramic pumpkins on the stairs
stuffed witch in the window
pink balloons
streamer over the door, “Happy Birthday!”
ceramic pumpkins on the stairs
stuffed witch in the window
pink balloons
streamer over the door, “Happy Birthday!”
foreclosure effects
furniture stored under blue tarps
two more dogs in the yard
another car parked before the house
somewhere another house
dead grass, empty windows
the roses bloom for no one
two more dogs in the yard
another car parked before the house
somewhere another house
dead grass, empty windows
the roses bloom for no one
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
The lie?
“at the tollbooth by the bridge I paid for the car behind me
just to imagine their surprise”
she told me the story and I could picture it
so well, in fact, that the next time I heard it
it came out of my mouth
I couldn’t remember and still don’t know
whether I repeated the act
or had accepted her story as my own...
just to imagine their surprise”
she told me the story and I could picture it
so well, in fact, that the next time I heard it
it came out of my mouth
I couldn’t remember and still don’t know
whether I repeated the act
or had accepted her story as my own...
Sunday, July 12, 2009
pair bond
you can’t both want
one of you has to be able to say
yes dear, that sounds all right to me
one of you has to be able to say
yes dear, that sounds all right to me
Friday, July 10, 2009
winter bedtime
in the cold house
I laid my cold body down
topped it with an electric blanket
and learned
what a hot fudge sundae feels like
I laid my cold body down
topped it with an electric blanket
and learned
what a hot fudge sundae feels like
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
speaking of animals...
--pet-love
leaps through the air
warm, purring fur-ball into my arms
silky and filled out with winter fur
her paw and its thorn sticking out
on the keyboard leaving
a trail of 7's
*
start of the morning
in your robe, pork chop in hand
luring a recalcitrant hen
not so crazy
as to talk to chickens
the hen and I,
engaging in duets
omnivorous and ravenous
the hen, when laying
Schnabelschweinchen (beak-pig)
*
distinguished from animals
by scheduling ourselves more tightly
(animals take themselves more lightly)
*
--Subtle
I answered the cat that blinked her round eyes at me
Crimped ear was her answer
*
the cat comes in from the snow
and balances on my knee with her cold buttons
*
she followed me to the corner
and sat down, ears erect
black and white statue under the oak trees
until I walked out of sight
*
Cat on the fence, bird caught on her thorn by a wing
Malevolent little spirit
Anger lives in her
What it takes to bring a fast bird down
*
I imagine one small cat could eventually
Fill a whole house with hair
*
the cat admires back
eyes half closed with love
asleep on your warm bed
plunge your hands into her round rug
enunciates clearly at night
ow-whoa into every lonely room
flashing her green mirrors
*
the difference between us and the animals?
we are able to speak hypothetically
from a position occupied but not
believed in
*
neighborhood dog
peculiar high
bark of protest, wounded pride
when your dog calls, why do you not answer?
pity taints the springest morning
*
an only hen
top of the pecking order
expects me to fight for my position
It must be something good for you
administered with motherly intonations
a painful peck.
makes do with the company she has
alternately squats, pecks, and begs for cheese
the god of hens dictates closely
does not allow one to choose
heaven or hell
*
the hen, in flight on the ground,
steers through the gate with the rudder of her tail
*
My black cat travels, in part
Hair stuck to the Scotch tape
I used to mend a payment envelope
To Allstate in Dallas
That’s also how my tongue cells,
My saliva gets around
To the various corporations
That personal touch, soon to become obsolete
Bill Pay online
*
Dogs are young
And don’t know any better than to give in
*
Chickens--Observing their customs
Committee of three
If you can persuade two of them
The other automatically follows
Flatten the grass with extended toes
more of a sail that a tail
--Free flying chickens
Flying is the araucana’s joy
She cajoles the others
To fly onto the fence, chase jays
Who come for the sunflowers
We tied seed-side up
Right after I wrote this
I was forced to clip their wings
*
The cat
The way she’s laying on the chair
Four legs together
Like a bouquet
Crackling purrs
I hold her while she spit-cleans
Her face
A little food to sustain the cat
And a lot of opening and closing of doors
*
observing chicks—the expressions
on faces that come to a point
_____ says
Innocent lives that can be had for a buck
*
Chickens stretch their necks to peck
Spider-silk wrapped packages
*
The way the young chickens, gathering their skirts
Come running out of the greenhouse every morning
Leaping at each other with a challenge
Into the air, chest to chest, with raised beaks
And then resume pecking at a common clump of grass
You’d think that
That much aggression
We might be allowed
*
The cat’s asleep, at peace
Having found her food bowl
She has discharged her duty to the nation
*
--cat-in-arms
she liked to hook my robe with her claws
and lean back against my arm like a child,
exposing a neck of white plush
wiped herself down pre-nap on my desk
so she could go to sleep in the blue
plastic basket on the bills
*
fellow light, so briefly shining
removed the gaze from her eyes
took the verve
and left us with this stiffness
this stillness
erect ears, body still clad
in perfect
we laid her in the ground
I have been reexamining
my attitude towards the ground
(coverlet for seeds and civilizations)
leaps through the air
warm, purring fur-ball into my arms
silky and filled out with winter fur
her paw and its thorn sticking out
on the keyboard leaving
a trail of 7's
*
start of the morning
in your robe, pork chop in hand
luring a recalcitrant hen
not so crazy
as to talk to chickens
the hen and I,
engaging in duets
omnivorous and ravenous
the hen, when laying
Schnabelschweinchen (beak-pig)
*
distinguished from animals
by scheduling ourselves more tightly
(animals take themselves more lightly)
*
--Subtle
I answered the cat that blinked her round eyes at me
Crimped ear was her answer
*
the cat comes in from the snow
and balances on my knee with her cold buttons
*
she followed me to the corner
and sat down, ears erect
black and white statue under the oak trees
until I walked out of sight
*
Cat on the fence, bird caught on her thorn by a wing
Malevolent little spirit
Anger lives in her
What it takes to bring a fast bird down
*
I imagine one small cat could eventually
Fill a whole house with hair
*
the cat admires back
eyes half closed with love
asleep on your warm bed
plunge your hands into her round rug
enunciates clearly at night
ow-whoa into every lonely room
flashing her green mirrors
*
the difference between us and the animals?
we are able to speak hypothetically
from a position occupied but not
believed in
*
neighborhood dog
peculiar high
bark of protest, wounded pride
when your dog calls, why do you not answer?
pity taints the springest morning
*
an only hen
top of the pecking order
expects me to fight for my position
It must be something good for you
administered with motherly intonations
a painful peck.
makes do with the company she has
alternately squats, pecks, and begs for cheese
the god of hens dictates closely
does not allow one to choose
heaven or hell
*
the hen, in flight on the ground,
steers through the gate with the rudder of her tail
*
My black cat travels, in part
Hair stuck to the Scotch tape
I used to mend a payment envelope
To Allstate in Dallas
That’s also how my tongue cells,
My saliva gets around
To the various corporations
That personal touch, soon to become obsolete
Bill Pay online
*
Dogs are young
And don’t know any better than to give in
*
Chickens--Observing their customs
Committee of three
If you can persuade two of them
The other automatically follows
Flatten the grass with extended toes
more of a sail that a tail
--Free flying chickens
Flying is the araucana’s joy
She cajoles the others
To fly onto the fence, chase jays
Who come for the sunflowers
We tied seed-side up
Right after I wrote this
I was forced to clip their wings
*
The cat
The way she’s laying on the chair
Four legs together
Like a bouquet
Crackling purrs
I hold her while she spit-cleans
Her face
A little food to sustain the cat
And a lot of opening and closing of doors
*
observing chicks—the expressions
on faces that come to a point
_____ says
Innocent lives that can be had for a buck
*
Chickens stretch their necks to peck
Spider-silk wrapped packages
*
The way the young chickens, gathering their skirts
Come running out of the greenhouse every morning
Leaping at each other with a challenge
Into the air, chest to chest, with raised beaks
And then resume pecking at a common clump of grass
You’d think that
That much aggression
We might be allowed
*
The cat’s asleep, at peace
Having found her food bowl
She has discharged her duty to the nation
*
--cat-in-arms
she liked to hook my robe with her claws
and lean back against my arm like a child,
exposing a neck of white plush
wiped herself down pre-nap on my desk
so she could go to sleep in the blue
plastic basket on the bills
*
fellow light, so briefly shining
removed the gaze from her eyes
took the verve
and left us with this stiffness
this stillness
erect ears, body still clad
in perfect
we laid her in the ground
I have been reexamining
my attitude towards the ground
(coverlet for seeds and civilizations)
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Friday, July 3, 2009
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
flood on South First
in a moment of exuberance
the river catches at a back yard
swings itself over the road
the river catches at a back yard
swings itself over the road
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
visits and visitations
The old, not so very dangerous
You do not have to have a plan
By itself, my body breaks into a smile
pooled in the hall--
(these things are not important)
(describing these lets them take on a false importance, do you see?)
greeted by the stink
of forgetfulness, unbound bodily urges
the breaths-upon-awakening
exhalations of spent stems
from flowers too long in vases
crazy laughter from the boy without a bladder
Theresa, on hearing herself groan
feels less alone
coiffures and nail polish, lipstick and earrings
on the propped-up old, waiting
feather-light in carriage wheel-chairs
for family to come and take them home
“Listen, dear, I don’t live far. Can’t you give me a ride?
I’ve been waiting here for such a long time.”
Earl, I love him
his face turns red
when I read to him
he cries
Leila, lovely in pale pink
and a little straw hat
back to pre-speech
variations in tone and timbre
a flute and a hum
innocence returned to her
Agnes
rising inflections on the way to a question, “oh are they...”
parts of statements left hanging, “yes, that’s a...”
an opinion stated, while smiling into a smiling face, “no ”
Wanda--Alzheimers
common, farmer stock
pale, lipless, cave of her mouth--
does battle for her perceptions
bursting right through her confusion
to make a statement, any statement
a definite conclusion drawn from an imagined occurrence--
“I got them to give me a beer”
there doesn’t seem to be anything wrong with her
though it frightens them when she talks of things that never happened.
“I’m ok, I guess. Only I have to waste my time, come here and sit all day, you know, when I have small children at home, the youngest only, what is he, six by now I guess.”
no crying
around the lunch tables we tell jokes
short ones so
we still remember the beginning when we get to the punch line
Estelle, hooked to an oxygen tank
chortles into her coffee (she’s hoarding two green cups at once)
“I’d give anything for a highball”
(make that a 7-high, if you would)
Lou
motions an arthritic claw towards her plate
I pick up a fork and feed her
She thanks me, unaware
we’re saving each others lives
You do not have to have a plan
By itself, my body breaks into a smile
pooled in the hall--
(these things are not important)
(describing these lets them take on a false importance, do you see?)
greeted by the stink
of forgetfulness, unbound bodily urges
the breaths-upon-awakening
exhalations of spent stems
from flowers too long in vases
crazy laughter from the boy without a bladder
Theresa, on hearing herself groan
feels less alone
coiffures and nail polish, lipstick and earrings
on the propped-up old, waiting
feather-light in carriage wheel-chairs
for family to come and take them home
“Listen, dear, I don’t live far. Can’t you give me a ride?
I’ve been waiting here for such a long time.”
Earl, I love him
his face turns red
when I read to him
he cries
Leila, lovely in pale pink
and a little straw hat
back to pre-speech
variations in tone and timbre
a flute and a hum
innocence returned to her
Agnes
rising inflections on the way to a question, “oh are they...”
parts of statements left hanging, “yes, that’s a...”
an opinion stated, while smiling into a smiling face, “no ”
Wanda--Alzheimers
common, farmer stock
pale, lipless, cave of her mouth--
does battle for her perceptions
bursting right through her confusion
to make a statement, any statement
a definite conclusion drawn from an imagined occurrence--
“I got them to give me a beer”
there doesn’t seem to be anything wrong with her
though it frightens them when she talks of things that never happened.
“I’m ok, I guess. Only I have to waste my time, come here and sit all day, you know, when I have small children at home, the youngest only, what is he, six by now I guess.”
no crying
around the lunch tables we tell jokes
short ones so
we still remember the beginning when we get to the punch line
Estelle, hooked to an oxygen tank
chortles into her coffee (she’s hoarding two green cups at once)
“I’d give anything for a highball”
(make that a 7-high, if you would)
Lou
motions an arthritic claw towards her plate
I pick up a fork and feed her
She thanks me, unaware
we’re saving each others lives
Sunday, June 28, 2009
from the viewpoint (vandalized, graffitied)
the fields laser-straightened,
machine-planted
the fruit trees equidistant
their shadows aligned
the subdivisions
are securely fenced
so the houses cannot escape, stray into
the surrounding fields
machine-planted
the fruit trees equidistant
their shadows aligned
the subdivisions
are securely fenced
so the houses cannot escape, stray into
the surrounding fields
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Worlds in Collision (Immanuel Velikovsky), etc
I wouldn’t push the truth too much
or regulate the child too precisely
bad science makes for good dreams
a great education
hope from a book that’s badly written
but too exciting to put down
in the cracks between
the inefficiencies and inattentiveness
of the imperfect teacher
flourish little lives
or regulate the child too precisely
bad science makes for good dreams
a great education
hope from a book that’s badly written
but too exciting to put down
in the cracks between
the inefficiencies and inattentiveness
of the imperfect teacher
flourish little lives
on the campground
I don't mind the children
It's the parents
giving in to anger, lies
revenge
when a quiet word would do
It's the parents
giving in to anger, lies
revenge
when a quiet word would do
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
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